For Marina Lacerda, the anticipated release of U.S. government files on Jeffrey Epstein holds significant weight; she was only 14 when he began sexually abusing her at his New York mansion. As she looks forward to the files shedding light on her trauma, she admits struggling to piece together much of her past.

Lacerda articulates a haunting fear: I feel that the government and the FBI knows more than I do, and that scares me, because it’s my life, it’s my past.” With President Donald Trump recently signing legislation to facilitate the release of voluminous FBI files, Lacerda and other victims feel the time for justice is long overdue.

While Lacerda anticipates the revelations the documents may contain about Epstein’s two-decade-long abuse of minors, not all survivors share her optimism. Jena-Lisa Jones, who was also victimized, articulated her frustrations about a system that failed them, as Epstein’s previous legal entanglements shielded him from serious repercussions.

Long Awaited Justice?

The investigations into Epstein have been fraught with complications. Often, survivors found themselves questioning the political motivation behind the release of these documents, remembering the unresolved pain and trauma they endured during his life.

Lacerda, now 37, reveals how the abuse disrupted her adolescence, recalling that her first experience of massaging Epstein led to layers of exploitation that severed her education and childhood. As she combines hope with trepidation, she expresses a desire to confront her past, wondering if the files might confirm lost memories hidden in the shadows.

“It will be re-traumatizing, but it’s transparency – and I need it,” Lacerda said.

Concerns Over Transparency

Despite her hopeful anticipation, feelings of paranoia and skepticism about the accuracy of the released files linger for Lacerda and others. Survivors worry the government might release edited materials that protect influential individuals connected to Epstein.

Haley Robson, another survivor, has voiced similar concerns, expressing that the release of the files is intertwined with painful memories of manipulation and betrayal. This is the first time since 2006 where I don’t feel like the underdog,” she shared, reveling in the power that comes with finally having a chance to be heard.

As they await the outcome, survivors remain vigilant, knowing their stories have yet to be fully told in the ongoing battle for justice against a backdrop of complex legal and social dynamics surrounding the Epstein case.